I will be exactly where I need to be

Last week I started looking into teacher requirements. I'm going to take a practice praxis test this week without any studying to see how well I do and that will determine the date I register for the test.

 

Last week we had a field trip with all the CRI students at the local high schools. I ended up seeing a woman that was one of my moms closest friends back in the day. I went over to speak to her and she was so excited to see me. She teaches CRI English at another high school. I told her I was thinking about becoming a teacher and she gave me so much information and offered to help me. I've found myself a mentor! When I told my mom about running into her, I expressed that I was surprised she knew who I was right away because I've only seen her once in the past 10 years or so. My ma replied, "you know she used to pray that you would marry her son right? She told me to pray that prayer every time we hung out, so I spent years praying against that. You owe me." I would rather spend a lifetime in celibacy than be married to her son, but I'm glad she's willing to help me!

 

I was talking to my connection at the board of education yesterday and telling her about my desire to move up and how I'm going to be taking the Praxis and I asked her what classes I need to take to become certified. She said that I could take the classes on my own or I can do the resident teacher program. If I do the resident teacher program then they will pay for my master's degree and I have a 3 year commitment to the county. I planned on sticking in my county anyway because we need good teachers, so the resident program sounds perfect. My MIL and ma have been hounding me to go back to school anyway because I'm so brilliant (or something like that) and I always said I would if somebody else paid for it. I'm going to request my SAT scores because I can't remember them and a certain score will mean less testing.

Fear started creeping in when I realized I was moving forward in my  plans to become a teacher. I like my school because it's the perfect location and I get along with all the other staff. What if I move to another school and the people aren't as nice? What if I have a difficult commute and it doesn't work well with dropping Judah off at school next year? I started speaking my verses on conquering fear and the Lord said "you will  be exactly where you need to be." I started thinking back on all my jobs. Anytime I was in a bad situation and I did what I was supposed to God either moved the problem or He moved me. It always works out well for me in the end. When my boss was stealing Viagra from the pharmacy and nobody believed me when I said it was him? God moved him. When that SAME BOSS showed up as a manager at the next company I was working for a few years later and stole $300 from my drawer and said it was me? God protected me and he was arrested. When I had a boss that called me a pickle head and made ridiculous requests of me daily, God moved her. He works on my behalf daily, so I know when I move into a new position, He will be right there placing me exactly where I need to be.

I Do All Things Well

I think I can do anything. When I see somebody do something I immediately think well if they can do it, so can I. This is a good and bad thing. On one hand, this is extremely arrogant and I need to be a bit more humble; but on the other hand, it's great motivation to work hard and attempt new things. I'm not attempting to diminish anybody else's accomplishments, it's just that I think I'm the greatest of all time even when I'm clearly not. One of the affirmations I get Judah to say is "I do all things well" because I want him to always be motivated to stick with a task until the statement is true.

Yesterday I was in a classroom to fill in for a teacher that needed to attend an IEP meeting and I saw a sign that was posted in the class. The sign read "No late work accepted unless you have an excused note within 3 days assignments were due is presented." Read that again. Read it one more time. It makes absolutely no sense. I thought to myself, if she can be a teacher, surely I can too.

If you follow me on twitter then you see me talk about my daily interactions at school. I frequently talk about the head teacher in my classroom. He doesn't know how to manage the classroom, he's never as prepared as he should be, and the kids can barely understand what he's saying. I look at him everyday and tell myself that if he can be a teacher, then I can be a teacher too.

I've been doing this job since October and I frequently see things that I could do better and that I would do differently. I don't believe in complaining about something that you can change. If you don't like something, do something about it. It's with that sentiment that I've decided that I'm going to become a teacher.

A few months ago, Singlema posted on twitter something about living your best life. It was asking about what's stopping you from living your best life and it mentioned not letting fear stop you. The only thing stopping me from being a teacher is fear. What if it turns out I can't run a classroom? What if the kids stage a mutiny and overthrow me and I have daily chaos in my classroom? What if during my evaluations they decide I suck and fire me? Will it take away from spending time developing my own kids? In my position now, there is no pressure on me and when everything is going wrong, it's on the teacher and not me. I don't have to fill out paperwork, I don't have to do individual education plans, and when I leave work, I'm done. It's a very easy life, but what about all the ideas I have? What about the lesson plans I keep coming up with in my head? What about the children stuck with a subpar teacher because I'm too scared to take the next step?

Living beneath your capabilities is a disgrace and does a disservice to God and the people He placed you here to impact. I love my job, it's time to kick it up a notch. If y'all don't hear me talking about getting my certification please shame me into action. This week my goal is to sign up for the Praxis. Here we go...

Randoms

This time change is kicking my butt because Alaia thinks it's party time until midnight. The other night she was dancing to Michael Jackson while I was trying to sleep. She has started to grab at things and flip all the way out when she can't grab something she wants. Yesterday we were on my bed and she was hanging off the side trying to grab my lamp. When I stopped her she grabbed my glass and threw it on the floor. She better calm her little 6 months self all the way down.

********

My old job contacted me to see if I would be interested in working part time. I told him yes, so he's going to give his boss my information and we'll see where it goes from there. It would be computer work from home which is very easy for me to do. I've been trying to figure out what I want to do this summer. Most of the other teachers are working at camps and such, but I really don't want to do that. During the summer is busy season for my old job, so hopefully this will work out where I can just work for them.

********

We finally got all our medial bills and credit card bills (which was all medical and car stuff) paid off and it is such a weight off of me. I've mentioned before that last year was super rough financially, but we are finally back on track.

********

I've had a blog on marriage that I've wanted to type up for weeks  but every time I try and type folks start talking and I can't concentrate. Currently there's a student in my ear yapping about absolutely nothing. I sure wish she would hush. Are you reading this girl? Hush up!

********

I also have a blog on disciplining children I need to type up. The past few weeks I started noticing some undesirable traits in Judah so I spent a lot of time trying to figure out how to correct the behavior. It came down to changing the way MrC and I talk to him. Lately we've spent so much time fussing and barking orders at him and we've got to chill out. Of course we want an obedient child, but I have to remember we're teaching children not training animals. I've softened my tone and even remembered to use please and thank you again.

********
My book club just finished reading Harry Potter. Mannnnnn, it was so good. I was glued to those books for 2 weeks. Next week I start on The Chronicles of Narnia.