God is for me

This morning I was up at 5 with Judah and my mind was racing. I could not calm down so I was talking to God. I've been quite distant from Him these past few weeks. I wasn't really mad at him, but I was kind of disappointed with how I felt He's been treating me lately. I've been feeling kind of neglected. I know he's kept me alive and safe and healthy and all that, but there were some things I'd been talking to Him about and it felt like he didn't care about me. When we got to church this morning we checked Judah into the nursery and made our way into the sanctuary. I was sitting there not really present, but going through the motions. One of my friends go up to sing and she sang "You are for me" by Kari Jobe:

"I know that You are for me.
I know that You are for me.
I know that You will never,
forsake me in my weaknesses
I know that You have come now,
even if to write upon my heart.
To remind me who You are.
So patient, So gracious,
So merciful and true…
So wonderful in all You do.
You know me. You see me.
You know my every move.
You love for me to sing to You"

After she sang the praise team came up and each of them sang whatever God put on their heart and the band just followed. Every single song had me in tears. I felt God reassuring me of His love and talking to me about what's been going on. We ended up having worship for over an hour. The sermon was also on point and by the time I left church I was reassured that I'm Gods most favorite daughter. I'm so grateful that God is patient with me even when I'm a brat and I definitely don't deserve it.