Fear

My ma and I went to get the blinds for Judah's room over the weekend because JC Penny was having a sale. I was about to get the cordless blinds because I didn't want Judah to accidentally strangle himself at some point. The cordless blinds were ugly, they looked cheap, and they cost more than the blinds that would have been perfect for his room. My ma had a talk with me and I got the corded blinds that are perfect and I'll place a command hook on the window frame for the cord.

Judah's room is next to the garage. If somebody wanted to, they could climb on our garage and into Judah's room if I left the window all the way open. I never do. I keep the window locks on which prevents the window from being opened more than 2 inches. When I was a toddler I popped the screen out of my window and was halfway out when my dad walked in the room, saw me, and grabbed me. Just in case Judah turns into a miraculous 4 month old and learns how to climb out of his crib and walk, I never take the window locks off.

My ma is sewing Judah's curtains. I picked a nice canvas type material because it's heavy and reminds me of a safari. She was asking what length I wanted them. I told her I needed to do some research because I wasn't sure if long curtains were a strangulation hazard. 

After hearing that my ma decided she needed to have a serious talk with me about fear. As I was talking to her I started welling up all over again. I try not to be scared, but I'm terrified of something happening to my sweet baby. There have been days that I would randomly burst into tears at the thought and then I would spend time holding Judah and praying for his safety and my peace of mind. I know the spirit of fear is an attack from Satan, so I'm working hard to not let it consume me, but it's been hard for me. I'm going to write out some scriptures and put them up in my bathroom so I can have some peace. At the end of our conversation my ma said "What's that saying? God protects babies and fools. You and Judah are both covered."

p.s. His room is going to be awesomeness times 12. I can't wait to finish! And today I'm trying the cloth diapers again. I'll blog about my cloth diaper rationale and my experience so far tomorrow (or Thursday, y'all know how I do). I also have a video of Judah explaining to me why he shouldn't have to take a nap, my phone said it was too big to send, so I'll have to try another way.

Jerk!

My momma tried me today. If it were anybody else, I would have kicked them in the shin. Picture this: my backyard. spray painting some stuff for Judah's room.

Ma: What's that on your legs?

Me: *jumps around, swatting legs*

Ma: Stop girl, up at the bottom of your shorts. Are those bruises!?

Me: *looks down* Those are my stretch marks you jerk!

Ma: No, those aren't stretch marks, they're bruises *comes over to inspect* oh

I would fight her if she wasn't my momma. I really don't understand how she knows nothing about me. I distinctly remember having a conversation with her about how I get really dark stretch marks and they eventually fade after a few months of oil rubs. Also, I need longer shorts. My cheeks were hanging out the back and I'm sure the  old man next door was either super disgusted or very pleased. 

Baby at work

I took the baby to work with me today. He had a great time talking with my coworkers, but it seriously wore him out. I also got my cloth diapers today. I really need to up my supply if I'm going to go this route. I only have 5 of the kind I like.

Tonight MrC and I had a talk about house responsibilities. I've been super tired lately because I end up doing most of the daily house tasks. He does stuff when/if I don't. If I leave dishes in the sink for a few days, then he'll do them. After dinner, I think the dishes should be done immediately. We'll see if we can strike a compromise. My other issue is nighttime with the baby. MrC sleeps so hard so I don't expect him to get up in the middle of the night, but he can put the baby to bed and handle back pats. As I type this, MrC is on his 4th trip upstairs to pat the baby. I'm glad it's not me tonight!

I got nothing

Night 2 of Judah in the crib didn't happen. This time I blame MrC! I took the baby upstairs to get him nice and mellow for bed, and then I woke up hours later with the baby on my chest and MrC sleeping in front of the tv downstairs. If he hadn't fallen asleep during the football game, he could have gotten the baby off my chest and put him in the crib. See how I'm totally not to blame here? I'll try it again tonight. 

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I'm trying out cloth diapers today! I have the fuzzi buns brand. I just ordered 2 bumGenius diapers to try out as well.

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Our neighbors across the street have a 2 month old. They gave us a bag of clothes he outgrew yesterday, most of them he never wore because they were too small. The fact that my almost 4 month old can fit every single thing in that bag made  me laugh. We know 4 people having boys in the next 2 months so we're going to check and see if any of those 5 babies needs some clothes.

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My dad just called to say we needed to go to North Carolina to walk the land he just purchased. I swear this man is bored. Yeahhhhhhh. I'm thinking no, get off my phone.

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My sister is racist. She hates white nectarines. They are delicious.

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I know 2 people that have had 4 accidental pregnancies in a 5 year span. Of course these are people that didn't even need to have any babies. One of them is having her third baby tomorrow. She has to drive 2 hours to pick up her child's father from school tonight so he can be there for the birth. 

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We're having turkey burgers for dinner tonight. The recipe promised they'll be juicy and delicious. If they are, I'll share the recipe. Tomorrow we're having ribs in the slow cooker. Thursday, chicken on the grill. I love food. What y'all eating?

Back in Action

Heyyyyy y'all! Last week I was so wrapped up in the paint project that I thought would never end that I completely neglected this blog. Well, neglected it more than I usually neglect it. During last weeks rain and flooding my ma and I started painting the house. We did Judah's room and the hallway/foyer. I really underestimated how difficult it would be to paint and work and care for a baby. It took a week, but it looks so nice! Once I get the decorations up, I'll post before and after pictures. Our foyer used to have a blue ceiling with green walls and a black and white marble floor. It was as ugly as it sounds. Now the walls are gray and the ceiling is white. I love it! The banister is next. My ma is ready to do the kitchen and living room. I'm ready for a break. Maybe next week.

 

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Judah slept in his crib for the first time last night. I was watching the video monitor that Psonya sent me like it was a tv screen. Judah did great, I did not. He whimpered at 3:30 and I ran in and got him. Shame on me. I'll do better tonight. During the day he's been babbling so much more, it's really cute. We had a really funny conversation the other day. I don't know what we were talking about, but he was loving it.

 

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I'm a contractor. My 2 companies are meeting to today to discuss my review/raise. My boss at the company I'm contracted to just called and asked me to be in charge of a major project. I sure hope that gets reflected in my raise. I'm currently on the phone with her wowing her with my great ideas. Well, I had some crazy ideas, but after I realized they probably weren't going to pay off my house or double my salary, I started giving her good ideas.

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God really favors me.

 

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I have a formal wedding to attend on the 24th. All of my formal clothes are form fitting. I don't know if they fit this after baby body. I'm going to up my workout plan the next 2 weeks and see what happens. I'm not even going to try on the dresses until the 22nd. If they don't fit, I'll cry and MrC will give me permission to go buy a new dress and the problem will be solved.

 

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I wonder if I can post every day this week? I think I can!

Nursery

We still haven't painted, or gotten all the finishing touches together, but Judah's nursery is almost ready for occupation!

3 months old!

My sweet baby turned 3 months old yesterday! He weighs 8 pounds now and just started fitting into his 0-3 months clothes. He is smiling at people more now, which is so delightful! When he saw my sister 2 days in a row last week, he had so many smiles for her. It was like he was saying "hey, I remember you from yesterday, we had fun!" He's also started making sweet baby sounds and gurgling now. Up until last week it was mostly grunting sounds. About 2 weeks ago he began to roll over to one side. His new ability scared him a bit at first. He would roll over and then look around like "what the heck just happened." He continues to love mobiles and the fan. When he's on our bed and the fan isn't on, he looks up at it and then looks at us like we broke it. He eats every 4 hours, but if I time our evenings just right, I can get him to do a 6 hour stretch at night! He does really well at night and I pray this continues. After our night nursing session at 10 or 11, I put him in his bassinet and he goes right to sleep on his own I feed him again when he wakes up sometime between 2-4 and I put him right back down and he goes to sleep again.  I've been getting us in a consistent afternoon routine because we are going to transition him to his room in September. We give him a bath every other night and he loves them, I can't wait until he's old enough for bath toys and splashing! It's pretty easy to tell when he's sleepy, he'll start to tug at his ear or grab his hair. if we don't put him down for a nap after that cue, he begins to start fussing at us. If we ignore that he starts crying and it becomes a bit more difficult to get him to sleep. Taking him outside normally instantly calms him, and if we can't go outside, back pats and custom songs from mommy normally work. A few times there was too much stimulation going on and Judah got over tired, he is not a pleasant baby to get to sleep once he reaches that point! One thing we've always been able to count on since we brought him home from the hospital is the baby on chest move. He cannot resist it! If we're tired and he's not, or if he's fussing for absolutely no good reason, we put him on our chest and lean back and we get some sweet peace. Judah's not a big crier and even before he does cry he give us 2 warning shouts to give us time to fix the issue before he starts wailing, isn't that nice of him? The past 2 days he's started really trying to suck his pointer finger. He pushes the pacifier out and inserts his finger all the time now. MrC and my momma aren't having that at all! My ma was like "ohhh no, that's what your momma used to do and we aren't going through that with you Judah!" I didn't stop sucking my finger until I was 13, we're trying to keep Judah from following in his momma's footsteps! I think I'm finished boring y'all with all my sweet baby's development, stay tuned for pictures of his nursery!