Monday, January 4, 2010

I did it!

On Saturday morning, I did the big chop! Nobody actually believed I would go through with it. I liked the salon I went to, but I didn't really like the stylist. My appointment was at 8am. I got there a bit early, and I didn't even get my hair shampooed until 8:30. When I got finished with the steamer, I went back out to the waiting area and waited until about 9:30 for my stylist. As she was cutting my hair, she kept stopping to work with other people leaving me sitting there with half a head of hair and stuff running all down my face. Twitter helped me out so much Saturday. I was panicking and the lovely ladies on twitter kept me calm and reassured me I would be ok, because my stylist certainly wasn't doing that! I didn't leave the shop until around 11. I've been reading natural hair blogs for a long time and when people describe their big chop experience they often say things like, "I felt so free," or "I was in love with my hair." I am not going to lie, I didn't feel that way. I missed my hair. I hated this new hair on my head. I actually considered crashing my car into a dang wall so I wouldn't have to go home. Thankfully as I walked down the street a man driving the trash truck honked his horn at me and gave me a thumbs up. When I got home, TheCount's reaction let me know he didn't like it. Of course he would never say that, but I've known TheCount for 11 years, I know his personality well. I put on some jewelery and make up and we ran out to the store. When we pulled back up my mom and sister were standing outside of our apartment door waiting. My mom's face lit up, and my sister smiled and told me she liked it. Of course all the lovely ladies of twitter were sending me encouragement, so I stayed calm and was confident enough to walk out the house. Before I left, TheCount pulled me into the room and gave me a present he had for me. He told me he was proud I had the guts to cut my hair and he gave me some diamond earrings!
My ma, sister, and I hung out all day Saturday which was tons of fun (pictures to come). On Sunday morning I got up to go to church, looked in the mirror, and said "what the heck have I done?" TheCount, who isn't known for his compassion, saw my distress and said, "well you knew you were going to cut it and it would be short. Didn't you prepare for this." I'll give you 1 guess as to what happened next. I started crying, but not just crying, great heaving sobs. TheCount walked me over to the couch and just sat and held me until I stopped. When I finished, I got back in the bed. I wasn't ready to face people yet. My sister came downstairs (we had spent the night at my parent's house) and told me that she wanted me to get up, part my hair in 4 sections, and try 4 different hairstyles by the time she came home from church. I rolled over and went back to sleep. After awhile I got myself together, read my Bible and prayed, and got on the computer. I went to my hair blogs and to Serenity23's blog. I looked through her hair tab and then got to the post right after she did her big chop. She had a moment of "what have I done" too (though nowhere near as dramatic as me, lol) but her approach was, "well, we gonna roll with it." I repeated that to myself, and hopped out of bed. I spent the day experimenting and game planning. Before we left my parent's house, my momma helped me twist my hair. This morning I looked in the mirror and smiled. I took my twists out and smiled some more! I like it! During my lunch break I'm going to go get some hair accessories and products to help jazz up my short haircut.
So far at work today, 3 people have complimented me, telling me how much they love it, 3 have completely ignored it, and 2 people are still trying to figure out who I am.
**Picture to come, I've been waiting all dang day for it to load, and it won't**


This One Woman said...

Congrats on your big chop!!!!! I didn't BC but when I stopped straightening my hair I had folks confused wondering who I was too. I thought it was funny. Let the journey begin! :-)

pserendipity said...

What happened to my comment? Argh!!

Anyway, I won't repeat anything but the important parts. I'm SURE that you look beautiful. I can't wait to see it!

Jameil said...

The only reason I didn't have a big chop meltdown is because I was perm-free for 3 months and had been thinking about it for more than a year before that. I had finally gotten to that point where I was like JUST DO IT!! Isn't it nice to have people like your hair? Especially when you're nervous about it! I was super nervous going back to school after the BC! But I got some great feedback and I haven't looked back! Now, I did say I don't EVER want to go that short again. Lol. But that was 6 years ago and now... I might. Can't wait for the pic! :)

Serenity3-0 said...

Awe! I hate that I wasn't on twitter to talk to you. I miss y'all! I can't wait to see it and that's apart of life. You think about what you want to do. You play it over and over in your head and then you do it. Once it's done, you deal with the consequences. I'm sure Mr. Coutn didn't love it b/c YOU weren't sure of yourself and he's also not seen you with short hair. It's ok. It's gonna grow and even in the stage you are in now, you have to learn to love it and deal with it. The more confident you are, the more others will love it too. And if you have any questions, feel free to email me. But no crying over email pls! LOL

SimplyB said...

My B/C came by way of letting braids stay in my hair for over 6 months! I had a total meltdown before going straight to the braiders. Once that became too costly so I had to roll with the short cut. At first I couldn't stand to look in the mirror but as time when on I got used to the new do. While I will NEVER cut my hair off again it totally got better each day.

I know you look great!!!

Jazz said...

im glad I could help ya and your hair is gorgeous

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